Sunday, April 19, 2009

I don't sleep well anymore and this has many horrible repercussions that come with it. I am really emotional. More so than normal, but I harbor it and just cry to myself. I don't deal well. Loneliness can seem suffocating. I am working through that though. It has made me distant and I want to fix that.

We have a new building. I hope to post pictures somewhere soon. It has two classrooms and a main room and two bathrooms. I had full creative rights on the babies room and I am so happy with it but, it is definitely not done yet. I was so happy b/c in addition to Andrew helping, Ashley, Zane and Brettin came and helped me. It was so great.

Growing up has been hard and making decisions, even harder. but, I am so blessed and I know it and I just need to start living every moment like this is so. I am reading Redeeming Love right now and it is so great. It bring out a lot of emotions within me but, mostly of just hpw much I can not wait to find my special someone and start a life together. I think thats why god doesn't let me date, I will fall head over heels for the next guy and be married in like three months (ok, gross over-exaggeration but still....) I still need sometime single. So yea. 

Andrew and Amanda are sick and I am exhausted, So, I am gonna go watch a movie and spend sometime enjoying living in Mexico. 

2 comments:

Twig said...

Mi amore! I'm so glad to hear an update from you. I'm also excited to hear that you are reading Redeeming Love. But I do hope you can see God as your special someone with whom you've already started a wonderful life! I know things are hard and that there's nothing I can say or do to make it better. Just know that I care about you and trust that God will sustain you.

Amy Victory said...

Jennie, I am so proud of the young lady you are becoming. I have so many happy memories of you and I never cease to be amazed to find out what you are doing next. You touch people just by being who you are. I still remember Roy teaching you to cut with a chef's knife and I was sure you would cut a hand off or something, but he believed in you. Growing up is much tougher than I thought it would be. The older I get the more I understand why they call them growing pains. Roy and I will be praying for you. Amy Victory